Why do we do what we do? Why do we spend 21 years in school, get the title, buy the house, and keep. on. schlepping. What is our purpose? I know as much as I talk about my spiritual rediscovery that I should know the answer but I don't. I'm sitting here and I know I should be helping someone or cleaning the house or something...but I feel purposeless today. I am so close to getting done with school and I have no idea what the hell I'm doing. I know I may get a job but I also may lose my marriage. What, then would be the point of it all? I just wish I had some sort of insight into what my life could be like at least in the next year.
Will I be a barren female executive or will I be a mediocre corporate goon with 2.2 kids and a house in the suburbs?
It's funny- the thing that I fought so hard for is now a particle in the abyss...
Just a dark Saturday night, and no I haven't been drinking.
-TT
2 comments:
Your past is ALL particles. They accumulate to make you YOU, though. The thing is to figure out how to assemble them towards a worthwhile future.
(This was a lesson learned the heard way.)
-J.
As always, you enlighten great teacher. It's just a daunting realization not to be able to plan 2 weeks ahead of time, never mind a year.
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